Post by pom on Aug 4, 2012 0:03:13 GMT -5
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[style=width:350px; font-family: josefin sans; font-size: 30px; letter-spacing: 0px; text-align:center; color: #000; line-height: 80%; text-transform: uppercase; padding-bottom: 5px;]MACKENZIE EVANGELINA APPLEGATE
CITIZEN. TWENTY-TWO. ER NURSE. LOYAL. FORGIVING. DRAMATIC. DRIVEN. SELFLESS.
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,386,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=style, width:130px; height: 200px; background-image: url(http://i49.tinypic.com/28mka9x.png);][/style] | [style=height: 180px; overflow: auto; font-size: 9px;] Schuyler, No amount of money would have ever been enough to part us. I didn’t want to do it, but when you started talking about him, your life, I knew it was over. You said you were trying to fall in love with him. You said that you were unsure, but he was nice enough. I told you he was a cheating, liar and you still didn’t care. Were you trying to kill me? Were you trying to break my heart with every little fucking detail of your honeymoon? How dare you. How could you forget you were, you are the only person in this world for me? Everyone has a soul mate and you are mine Schuyler, but you are going through with the marriage they arranged you and…. If it will make you happy for the rest of your life, then my love for you forces me to allow you to live it apart from me. Your shampoo still lingers on the left side of the pillow, from the nights we slept together after we went to Applegate’s for some ice cream. That was your favorite place and we always tried something new and then our favorite. One scoop of each, remember? We were so worried about our figures for the cameras. I love you, but the chances of us being together look grim. Where do I fit in? When I’m watching you him…. I don’t fit in anywhere because of him! You chose him over me! You denied me. You denied me. You denied staying together with me while married to him. How could you toss me aside like that? I love you more than anyone else. I gave up everything for you. You don’t have any fucking idea how painful it was to be your maid of honor. Why did you have to choose me? Everything hurt me so much, but I put that smile on and I took every part of it with grace and stride. The dress fitting, I cried when you cried knowing you found the dress. Then they put the veil and tiara on you, earrings, necklace, and all the pieces that made a bride… Something borrowed, something blue, something new…. You know, all that stuff…. You were so beautiful and perfect, my beloved….. Cake testing with the both of you was awkward… But we did, you and me, like he wasn’t even there. We did everything together the way a true couple ready to get married. You know… Some days I forgot all about that man and thought it was a wedding for us… Until the day came, rehearsal dinner night, where it was him in the place that was for me; I took it in stride like I always do. Anything for you, anything to make you happy…. I never told you this, Sky, but I should have…. One of the rainy days when we were experimenting you were going down on me after I brought you to the peak and you burst. You were eager to please me after how loudly you rejoiced in the feeling that I brought you…. You mother was not herself that day. Maybe she heard you and purposely took off her usual high heeled shoes, but she was bare foot. She stood in the crack of the doorway and watched you. It took me straight out of the haze and wide awake. I was about to tell you, I swear I was, but she put her finger to her crimson lips and suddenly she was gone. I pushed your head back and you were so confused at me when I told you that I wasn’t feeling it and I wanted to go home. I was so scared for us, for you, Sky that I just left and ran home. I thought it was over, I knew it was over. The next day you were engaged. Then in a whirlwind of months I watched your father hand you off…. You were married. Remember, no amount of money would have ever parted me from you, but it was everything else that bitch of a mother you had that made me do it. She would ruin my father’s hard work with his affairs that we both knew he had but no one told my mother. She was feeble, my mother, after all and she was so in love with my father that it would have ruined her, too. That my family’s business would be in jeopardy. My little brother wouldn’t have been able to go through with his major league baseball dreams… It was everything that she held against me. Including your eventual happiness that she knew I was holding you from. She put a price tag on it and I raised it until she wouldn’t go higher. I took the bait and I agreed to stage my death for you. I don’t want to run away but I can’t take I don’t understand. If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way I can stay in your arms? No, there just isn’t a way, Sky. I went missing. I died. Remember, I’ll always love you. Bye. |
